Monday, July 4, 2011

My OCD With POAS

POAS: Peeing On A Stick (This blog post is not for everyone)

Day One
The line is back. Barely. And I am obsessed with peeing on a stick. I try different brands, different times of day, and I would try it doing a handstand if it would help make the line go darker. I can't believe that just four weeks after the chemical pregnancy I am seeing the faint line again. There is no spotting this time and I am grateful for that. But the friggin' line won't get darker!!!

Day Three
It has been 52 hours since the first faint line now. Still not getting darker, but not going away either. My husband is ready to turn me in for a newer, saner model.

Day Four
4th day since the first line showed up and it is finally getting a bit darker! I made an appointment with a lovely OB/GYN for early next week. Since we have no health insurance, I will have to pay out of pocket for a blood test and for the ultrasound. The ultrasound is probably not necessary but I would like to be reassured my little girl is hanging out in my uterus and not my fallopian tube. Yes, I said girl. With Aiven I knew it was a boy from the first moment, and I sense this one is a girl. Also, I spoke with my dearly departed bubbe last night. I don't often do that, but I asked her to keep my daughter safe. An hour later, when I peed on a stick, the line was finally darker. I take that as a sign.

Day Five
Finally, at 15 DPO, the little line is darker. Not dark, but darker. I am breathing a bit easier even though it really means nothing.

Day Seven
17 DPO and I am tired. Really tired. And slowly getting excited and nervous about the arrival of #2 - Manzanita. Manzanita is spanish for Little Apple. Aiven, who I have always called Batatito, is our Little Sweet Potato. Hence, the blog name Sweet Potato and Apples. Sweet Potato for Aiven and Apples for the 2 daughters of my dreams, one of whom will be joining us in early 2012  :)

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